Whew.

It's been a while! I have 2 blogs now! My other blog is in honor of the create a thing a day journal, so it's not as personal.  It's still pretty neat though.  Mostly I haven't been  posting because of my job, my homework, and my project a day blog.  It's a lot to get done.  Believe me, I do want to continue this one though.  It just may be far and few in  between sometimes.  I will definitely do my best.  Anyway, life has been good, but stressful at times.  I get really lonely still.  Lucky for me, I have skype and my boyfriend.  My weeks usually are: Monday - stay at home day with Nina - Tuesday - 10:30am swim lessons with Nina - Wednesday - 10:45am music class with Nina - Thursday - 12pm swim lessons with Nina (and sometimes happy hour with the fam at Agave) - Friday - Stay at home day with Nina, sometimes drop Nina in town with Tania, and head to the bus stations to go to Colorado Springs for the weekend.  There I will stay till I have to wake up at 3 am on Monday to catch the 3:45am bus to Denver and then the bus that gets me to Boulder at 6:30am.  I do this because the buses do not run on weekends, which is dumb.  Otherwise I would leave Sunday night. All well, more time with people.  Kinda crazy huh? What I forgot to add into my schedule breakdown was the mass amounts of homework I have to do.  Speaking of hw, I gotta go.  I have to finish some business hw, take a shower, and go to swim lessons.
(:
~Emily

Tearing me apart.

Right now, I know that I cannot handle anything more than normal daily tasks.  I am stressed to the point of breaking.  I am not handling much of anything well right now.  I kind of just want to sit in a dark room for a few days and stay away from everything.  I need peace.  I need to feel stability.  I need people to just back the hell off.  I feel like everything is just closing in on me right now and I can't breath.  The only thing that makes anything feel better is nowhere near me right now.  I miss Taylor so much.  I need him right now.  More than anything, I just want him to hold me and tell me it's going to be okay, because nothing feels okay right now. 

Long day.

The days are always longer when you are looking forward to something.  Isn't that how it goes for everyone? I get to go to the Springs today, and stay till Sunday.  I am super excited to see everyone.  Till then it is just me and Nina.  God am I sore.  I have had two yoga classes in the past two days.  Add that on top of child care and you've got sore muscles.  I so have to tell you about my awkward night. 

So what happened was, I got out of yoga to find out I left my headlights on. I then proceeded to walk from store to store to find someone who could jump my car. I found someone, and I felt so bad for asking. She jumped my car, and went back to work. I go to start the car and it dies again. I had to go BACK for her. So she came back out, jumped me, and we left it running for like ten minutes. I sat with the running cars while she went back to work for that block of time. While I was sitting by myself with the cars, this guy walks up and starts talking to me. Asks about where I'm from and such. He then asks if I want some weed. Later he proceeds to ask if I would like to go back to his place. I obviously declined (politely of course) and he left. Then, this other guy (who is friends with the girl who jumped my car) walks over to me and starts talking. Btw, he walked out of the liquor store. He offers me a beer because I apparently looked super stressed. I declined and he then proceeded to mega flirt with me. He then took the girls keys back to her, and I was on my way back home. I got hit on TWICE in no less than twenty minutes, and offered both weed AND beer. What a night.  Yup.  That's how it went.  I was so happy to be on the road after all of that, even if I was super exhausted.  Driving made me feel less awkward at least.  Annnnyway, let me take this time to tell you about how much I really am in love with my Taylor.  I find myself thinking about him almost all of the time.  I sometimes catch myself thinking about him when I don't even realize I was actively doing it.  I love him so much that I don't even know what to do with myself sometimes.  He really makes me feel good about myself.  He knows exactly how to make me smile.  While trying to explain this to you, I am actually becoming speechless, I am trying to find a way to explain this to you, but all I can do is smile.

Taylor, I am deeply madly and truly in love with you.

<3

~Emily