Hyper And Exhausted.

So, I went to horseback riding lessons with my sisters today.  My dad had to come with though.  Ugh.  Anyway, driving with him is stressful, but the lesson was really fun.  I got to learn different methods of controlling and directing the horse (Sonny) And I got to get hugged and kissed by my new "boyfriend" Macho Hahahahaha.  He is the horse you see in the picture.  He rolled over like a dog, and I got to lunge him (walk him in circles and such)  And I got to brush him.  Ever been licked in the face by a horse? It was hilarious.  Man though, horseback riding can build some serious leg muscle.  Okay... The picture I was gonna put up of Macho and I is being slow to send to my email.  Ill post it later.  Ill finish this blog later.  Lmao.  There, I finally loaded the picture like two days later.  Muahahaha.  I can finally finish writing this.

~Emily

Oh My.

In just a short amount of time I can finally stop being so impatient! They are on there way to Oregon as we speak :).  I am SOOOOOOO excited.  Now, how am I going to make it through tomorrow? Oh yes.  Plenty of cleaning to keep me busy huh.  Wonderful.  Soooo looking forward to that.  Hahaha.  I can't waitttttttttttttttttttttt.  I am going to have so much fun for the next couple of weeks.  I guess I better start memorizing that song that someone expects me to sing for them.  Haha.  I already know it, but I better make sure.

~Emily

What Can I Say?

Last night-I was pouring out my heart-Like a waterfall to you-And with one kiss-I was a runaway train-Flying off the track to you-I love you came flooding out-I couldn’t make it stop-I couldn’t shut my mouth.-I felt like a fool then lied and said I was sorry, but-I unapologize-I meant every word-Won’t take back the way I feel about you-Can’t unsay what you heard-Cause you heard me right-And I won’t try to fighting back and hide my feelings for you-I unapologize---Carrie Underwood "Unapologize"
Sometimes there are days where I find a million songs that fit my mood exactly.  There are two Carrie Underwood songs today for two different people. 
How did it come to this? -I think about you all the time -It's no excuse, but I wish -That I never made you cry -I'm not sorry that it's over -But for the way we let it end -I couldn't find the words to say---Carrie Underwood "What Can I Say"
I think it is probably pretty obvious who that one is for.

(I am sooooooooooooooo excited today.  They are on there way to Oregon tonight!!)

~Emily

Strike 3 yourrrrre out!

 It has been a bumpy day.  Dmv, bank, home and self drama.  I feel better now though.  (Thank you =D) Btw, I failed my first driving test.  For stupid reasons.  I have to take it again in a week.  I am not looking forward to another test.  At least I know what I did wrong.  Maybe I will get a different tester next time.  And right now, I am embarrassed as all hell.  But I will most definitely not tell you why that is.  LMAO. 

~Emily

Something for you to ponder.

" I love you Not only for what you are, But for what I am When I am with you. I love you, Not only for what You have made of yourself, But for what You are making of me. I love you For the part of me That you bring out; I love you For putting your hand Into my heaped-up heart And passing over All the foolish, weak things That you can't help Dimly seeing there, And for drawing out Into the light All the beautiful belongings That no one else had looked Quite far enough to find. I love you because you Are helping me to make Of the lumber of my life Not a tavern But a temple. Out of the works Of my every day Not a reproach But a song. I love you Because you have done More than any creed Could have done To make me good. And more than any fate Could have done To make me happy. You have done it Without a touch, Without a word, Without a sign. You have done it By being yourself. Perhaps that is what Being a friend means, After all. " - Roy Croft

~Emily

It don't break even.

My head is so full right now, I can't even come close to decipher what I am thinking about.  Mostly, I just feel like this breakup has my life on hold.  I feel like I can't make any decisions on anything without the worry of being looked down upon or just plain out hated.  As much as I would like to say I don't care what others think about me, it is obvious now that saying so would be lying.  I know, the breakup was very recent.  I know, I still wake up crying because I dream about him.  And believe me, I know that I am no where near over this yet.  But, I also know what makes me happy right now.  More so, i know who makes me happy.  And doesn't the fact that I dream about someone and wake up smiling tip the scale too? You tell me.

~Emily

What An Improvement.

I am liking this. You gave me a good dream. I laughed so much yesterday I felt happy for hours. I had a couple amazing conversations on the phone, with the amazing person who made my day. Why cant I feel this way everyday? I went to sleep happy, and then because of you, I woke up happier. I feel lighter somehow, like I have dropped some big weight off of my shoulders. I dont want it back. I am hoping you will help me stay this happy. I mean, dont get me wrong, right now I am lonely as hell, but I am happy still. I would also like to thank Shandee and Nathan for kidnapping me again yesterday. I love you guys.

~Emily

New.

You come in
You wipe the slate clean
I am almost me again
You clean the wounds
They slowly begin to heal
Slowly bringing me back again
You  hold me
Take away my fears
Never want to be alone again
Please kiss me
Fight off all the pain
Never let me go again

~Emily