Right now, I have moved right past the guilty, sympathetic feelings. I am now pissed off and upset. I feel like that at this point, you get whats coming to you. Maybe that is an irrational thing to say, maybe it's not. Either way, I am saying it and sticking with it (for now at least.) I will just do my best to move on with my life. I will TRY to focus on my OWN happiness for once. I know this is going to be difficult, because honestly, I don't give a shit about myself. BUT, if it means that I can be happy in spite of you? Maybe. Immature? Yes. Do I care? Not right now. I have my own wants and needs now. Wants and needs that are completely separate from you for once. It's both a good feeling, and a rip your heart out kind of pain sometimes. But, I know that I have somebody to lean on, somebody who cares about me more than I care about myself. I am soon going to be at the point where I can let you go. It is going to hurt like hell, but it has to happen. Just so you know, I can't stay friends with you if she is around. Call me bitter, but I don't think I want to be anywhere near the ***** who ruined half of high school AND half my relationship. I don't want to say you have to pick and choose your friends, but wait... Yeah, that is exactly what I want to say. I may have let you walk all over me while we were together, but I am trying to put myself back together now. I'm not going to deal with that. I am not saying that I don't love you, I am not saying that I regret the relationship, and I am not saying I wont miss you. I DO love you, that will never change. I don't regret the relationship, I am just glad that it is over right now. I will miss you, but I have to move on somehow. In the end, do what you want, say what you want, but just remember, I don't have to stick around at all.
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